Dear bully,
You are practically only one whom I still allow to hurt me like this, but still I think I don't completely hate you. In fact, now that I remember, long ago there came a time when I actually wanted to understand you. You have your charms, and your mishaps. As honest as I am till my bones, I have adored your charms, and heaven knows what wrath your mishaps possess. It gives me whiplashes all the times making me forget all my logic, causing me to stay back and think of things I should have told in your face. I am sorry for not behaving according to my own rules. I wasn't being myself and trying to understand you. All this time I have known you to be kind with your beloved ones, Its very sad that I am not one of them. People might be expendable to you, it really hurts when you put that thought of yours to practice but it must have been really sad to have not a free soul you can trust upon. I get your conditions, its just that till date you have not changed, and I could not respond instead of reacting. I am sorry for being defensive, but I am more sorry to myself, the poor being who has suffered from extra magnified deals inside and that too out of an individual who does not even care for me. Its a pain how I remember your every single detail, but that also helps me remember lessons you have taught. You taught me sorry does not fix things, I could not follow it. You taught me I should not show my weaknesses to others, see,, I am still confessing. Every lesson you taught me, I am always thankful that I remember it after you hurt me next time. This time it ran for 2 days but I promise to you dear, I promise I will take a better care of myself from now on. You surely will be rough next time also and I don't know how long this next time will be but trust me this time I promise I will be following every worthy suggestion you gave me. I still do not posses what it takes not to be sad about you, but its a start that I can simply try and start again, fail and then start again. Its my life and my shoes, you don't have to understand it anyway, neither does rest of world. Why should you be the only one to hurt me? Bye bye dear bully. Try every thing and anything from now on in your power, it will hurt me bad but these are my Armour you see, I rise out of hurts. I don't fake a smile to show strong, I will cry my eye out and If i am smiling, its genuine dear. I cant stop thinking of you and what you did to hurt me but trust me I really forget before I call your lovely name out with all my might, with all my heart full of love, it gives me eternal peace. I am rich enough to help you despite what you do, I have paid every hurt with flowers dear, it comes around to me every now and then. That's how I am build,,, lt might not be respectful to you dear, but its what keeps me alive and my god knows how grateful I am to you, I have forever been struck, could never help it, but It has grown a shock absorbent out of my skin you see and from now on you bring me down to the earth and help me rise.
